the beautiful things

I recently started practicing Kabbalah. Not as a "jump on the hip train" sort of thing, but on a suggestion from my mother to find a way to "center myself"

Balance has, and always has been a weak point for me.  It is difficult for me to adjust to change, it is difficult for me to see the good when there is so much bad.  Being positive has only gotten me so far in life, and so I have found myself as a student of Kabbalah.  Which I enjoy.  Non traditional as it may be ( and as I am) I have found many lessons within this practice that has helped me find joy in the day to day. 

I have had more happy days in the past week than I have had in the past six months, and by happy days, I do not mean when people "make me" happy. I mean happy days where I am just happy on the inside.  This happiness has been a hard road for me.  I have long battled a myriad of "sad issues" and I have felt more centered and more happy. 

For the record: Kabbalah is not a religion, more of on "add on" to beliefs that we already have.  It coexists with any judeo-christian thinking, and even if one does not believe in anything, the positive thoughts it helps stimulate is like chicken soup for the non believing soul. I have many friends that do not believe in anything, which is fine, as their choice is their choice, however the overwhelming happiness I feel attached with the mantras of Kabbalah are wonderful.

Every morning I get an email from the "daily tune up" of Kaballah wisdom (Yehuda Berg) today it read as such:

Successes aren't what really matter in life; it's what we do with our failures that makes us, and our work, great in this world.

Today, keep moving. Every no brings you closer to a yes

Yesterday's was as follows:

Everything you see in others is a reflection of your own ego. When you see something in someone else that especially bothers you, what you're really seeing is your own hidden faults being reflected back at you.

What's more, the reason you see it when you do is because it's the ideal time to bring the ego down!

Today, when someone gets under your skin, know you're being given a key.

Your work is to find the grain of truth in what you see.

These words bring a lot of insight to my life, and as a mother, human, woman, partner, and student, they help me destress and find happiness... even where before I found none.